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Romanticizing My Cooking

Bakso I have to admit that my love for cooking is growing. It's growing and I can't believe it myself. This feeling has been like this since probably two years ago. Before, cooking felt like a hard work that I had to fulfill. It still is, but the difference is I enjoy it now. So it does not feel like I am forcing myself.  Back then whenever I cooked, it's either wrong recipe or incorrect measurement. It never tasted right. So I gave up cooking just because I never found the right one. And then I started to feel that I wanna eat better. I don't want to just eat whatever, I want to know what goes into my body. If I prepare it myself, then I know it's good one.  I don't eat too much sugar, sometimes it is hard to buy one thing outside and has a lot of sugar in it. So cooking it myself will allow me to control the amount of sugar. So I found recipes and I tried to make them. As to my surprise, they taste right! Exactly how they should have tasted. That made me happy

Cant Stand The Crowds


I am not a party person. I hate loud music, loud voice, everything loud I hate that. This is the reason I hate to go to the night clubs. For what? Party? Dancing? Drinking? Then what? Going home with a super headache head? If I go to the place like that, my introvert side will pop up and make me tired in no time.

My friends in Surabaya once took me to a night club. I thought hmm okay why not, lets see what will happen there. But nah, I did not enjoy any moments of it. It was fun to be with them, but I did not enjoy the music or whatever crowds was. But that kind of loud music I can handle if it is only one source of loud music. What I cant handle is when I am in the middle of crowds with so many sources of voice (although it is not loud but crowded), that is the worse. Worse ever.

When we were in Istanbul, there was an underpass filled with so many vendors, countless people, so noisy, too crowded, so many languages spoken there, too hot, it is even make me feel tired by thinking about that again now. The underpass was not that far, probably less than 50 meters. But it took ages for me to pass it. I could not handle it. Covered my ears, walked fast, and once I made it to the end of the underpass, I sat in the corner and cried. I really cried. It was too much that I cant handle ever.

My husband of course did not understand why I cried. Maybe he thought that I was just exaggerate it. I can imagine if he cant understand it. I cant control myself even after I got out. It was really too much. I also did not understand why I cried, but lately I think about it and it is probably because I have a little bit of me being introvert. My husband can handle it, but I cant.

Once we passed it, I was too afraid to go back there and walk through the underpass again. I did not exaggerate it, it was too scary for me to go back again. But eh we walked through it again and I took a very deep breathe then walk in a not~very quick steps but did not stop. I control my pace so I can survive. After a few minutes I survived. I almost cried again but I can handle it. I just stopped, stood for awhile, taking breathe before continue the walk. Then I got ice cream to chill myself.

Today, I had my Dutch class, she suddenly act exactly like me when I am in the middle of the crowds. We had a really tough morning, this morning kinda busy with classes in the second floor so can you imagine the voices of people speaking English, Nederland, Japanese, I even mumbling myself with Korean, in one place? That was hard. It influence me and made me cant focus on my first 15 mins. We closed the door and said that we cant handle this crowds. The noise from every sources in one place is killing us. It may sounds childish, but every people has its own problem.

I found a way to control my feelings. When I go to the crowds place unintentionally, I always have my headphone with me and I choose to listen to the songs or audiobook, a bit louder. So what comes from my headphone will beat the crowds. So far it helps. 

So when you are with someone who cant handle this situation, do not get mad. They probably struggling inside to deal with it. Ask them, and take them to a less crowd place to take a breathe and control their feeling inside. It helps a lot.

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  1. Percaya atau enggak, setiap orang itu kaya punya 'alamnya' sendiri. Kalo kita bukan anak parti, trus sok-sokan ikutan parti pasti rasanya aneh. Sama juga sama anak yang hobi parti trus suruh ngendon di tempat yang sepi pasti rasanya juga aneh.

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    1. kalo kata anak matematika semestanya beda haha!
      ndak isa maksain diri juga jadinya, ga bakal masuk. masa iya bkn anak party diajak party yg dibuka kindle ditengah2 kebisingan lol

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    2. Joget mbak, malah bukak kindle

      -__-'

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