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Romanticizing My Cooking

Bakso I have to admit that my love for cooking is growing. It's growing and I can't believe it myself. This feeling has been like this since probably two years ago. Before, cooking felt like a hard work that I had to fulfill. It still is, but the difference is I enjoy it now. So it does not feel like I am forcing myself.  Back then whenever I cooked, it's either wrong recipe or incorrect measurement. It never tasted right. So I gave up cooking just because I never found the right one. And then I started to feel that I wanna eat better. I don't want to just eat whatever, I want to know what goes into my body. If I prepare it myself, then I know it's good one.  I don't eat too much sugar, sometimes it is hard to buy one thing outside and has a lot of sugar in it. So cooking it myself will allow me to control the amount of sugar. So I found recipes and I tried to make them. As to my surprise, they taste right! Exactly how they should have tasted. That made me happy

Sayang Bumi Sayang Anak

Sharjah - UAE Gw suka banget belanja online. Ya karena praktis aja. Tentu saja gw juga suka banget belanja langsung on the spot  kalau lagi stress dan lagi ada waktu buat muter-muter. Tapi... ternyata gw jadi kesel tiap abis belanja online, gw harus berurusan dengan plastik-plastik bekas belanja.  "Dih plastik lagi." Emang, beberapa barang tentu saja perlu plastik/ bubble wrap  ekstra. Tapi banyak dari belanjaan gw yang nggak perlu itu semua. Tebel banget. Gw paham juga beberapa toko lebih milih dibungkus plastik tebel biar tokonya nggak dikomplain. Tapi bagi gw, udah kebangetan.  Gw tau kita nggak bisa sepenuhnya nggak pakai plastik. Kita masih akan pakai plastik. Konsekuensinya, ya kita harus tau sampah plastik ini harus diolah gimana biar nggak kebuang sia-sia. Mana nggak bisa terurai ratusan tahun lagi.  Masalahnya, plastik ini seringkali nggak bisa dipake lagi karena selotip yang muter. Susah lah di- breakdown lagi biar bisa dipakai ulang. Akhirnya, tentu saja dibuang pe

Feeling Balanced

Never thought that I could feel this balanced. I now understand what zen is.  After all ups and downs that made me question my existential (probably won't be the last), I am starting to feel only love and less hate. As if love and compassion filling my heart every day. It's easy to annoy me normally, but so far, this past couple of months I feel less annoyed. So weird, crazy, yet amazing. Say, when I hear people talking about things I prefer not to talk about, like polygamy, I don't feel hate anymore. Usually, I'll say bad words, cursing them, you name it. But last night I watched a video about that and it made me feel "HA HA HA Stupid ignorant reasons" that was it. I thought I'll be emotional and angry, but I didn't. I even take pity for them. I know it's their right to do so, but the youngest wife wanted to go to college, and instead, she is married to that old guy who promised her to pay for her college. But that never happens (yet) even after 3