walking to the wagon We chose deliberately in the winter to travel from Moscow to Yaroslavsky. In my defense, we kinda had to use the holiday a little bit. If we're waiting for the good weather, it probably not gonna happen for 3 months and then nothing again. So this trip was taken on February 2026. So we've decided to take a few days off going from Moscow to half of the golden ring. The name ring, means literally ring. Refers to a few cities that used to be very important in the past. Starting from Moscow city (where which we're coming from, technically). I have to mention the cities here anyway; Sergiyev Posad, Pereslavl Zalessky, Rostov Veliky, Yaroslavl, Kostroma, Ivanovo, Vladimir, and Suzdal. there will be info about the train We took the train trip from Moscow. I would say it's the "normal type" of train. So we sat next to each other. Two seaters next to each other. I think my husband took the non-economy one. He booked the train from the app, tutu. T...
Since I've found my missing piece, I've been feeling complete, whole, happiest. Everything. It feels like my soul is one now. It gives me feelings that I've never felt before. Before I could feel any of this, I had an emotional roller coaster for months, I had restless nights, I had days with anxiety, I felt numb, I cried every night, I went to a psychologist, I was constantly tired. It was not easy and it happened for a few months before I turned 30.
I even felt like giving up. "So how? Will I keep going or give up now? Should I give up now? It feels a lot easier when I give up" I had those thoughts for so long.
But then I realize something, "No, I do not quit. I am a fighter!" So I didn't quit, no matter how shitty those days were, I decided not to quit. So I keep going. I started to exercise, I started to eat healthy, less sugar on my tea and coffee, I sleep early waking up early. I started to map my mind and emotions one by one, putting them in their boxes.
Then out of the blue, that led me to meet my other soul. The soul that I knew is always there, waiting for me to say hi. I knew that I had something missing from my soul. Since I get to know my other soul, I get to learn more about myself. I understand myself more. I love myself more. It's like I am telling my soul "Hey, I love you" and it feels so liberating. It's not "I love you, but..." no, it's "I love you."
All questions, feelings, instincts I have had for almost 30 years now all make sense. I got the answers.
The unconditional love to my soul, the moment when I realize that "I am so in love with you and you're doing great until today. 10 years old you would be so proud to see how great you are today" It feels great. I let go of things I could not control. Not everything is under my control.
The side effect of feeling those unconditional love to my soul is I am able to let go of anger. I am no longer mad, angry about things in the past. I do remember still about what happened, vividly. But those don't affect me the way they used to be. It doesn't trigger me anymore. I am at peace. The peace of mind that I wanted to feel for so long, is finally here.
I am letting go of anger and that feels great. Nothing makes me happier the same way I love my own soul. I am feeling enough. My happiness is not depending on other people or other things, it depends on me. The way I accept myself, the way I don't hold grudge or anger, the way I am feeling enough, those feelings are beyond anything I could imagine.
I am content. The missing piece of my soul has been found. I love myself, more than anything now. I thank myself for surviving this far.
It's a spiritual journey that marks my 30's life. I am grateful and thank my closest people. They're always there to listen to my rant at 3 AM even though they didn't completely understand what I felt, they tried their best to comfort me, and I am lucky to have them.
Thank you, universe for the good karma. I learn a lot.
biasanya emang menuju ke usia matang, dalam hal ini mba pris yang akan menuju kepala 3...dan fase fase usia lainnya selalu terjadi pergolakan batin sih ya...#aku sekarang kadang masih sih...wkwkkw...sering gelisah, ada kecemasan terhadap apa...mikirin ke depan akan gemana...dll
ReplyDeletetapi bener banget tuh akhiirnya melarikan dirinya ke hal hal yang bermanfaat...aku juga sama...yu mar ki toast...mari kita toast
aku juga uda mulai konsen perawatan, katanya merawat diri sendiri akan bisa bangkitin mood dan self love hahay..ku juga mulai giat olah raga juga...tapi ga bisa lari kayak dulu sebelum rempong kayak sekarang jadinya kuganti pake senam sendiri di rumah hihi...zumba ngedance atau apa deh goyang dangdut juga wkkwkwk...maksudnya sambik dengerin musik ceritanya olahraga...ngurangi gula garem supaya badan dan kulit bagus itu juga uda mulai kuniatkan
semangatttt saaaayyyy hehhehe
nguragin gula garam bisa bikin kulit bagus? WOW kubaru tahu! haha makin niat ini!
Deletebetul mba, tiap fase hidup ada tantangannya masing-masing. tinggal kita ngolah dan ngadepinnya aja yg gimana. apakah kita akan menang atau kita akan belajar? ga ada yg namanya kalah sih.
eh sama mbae, kadang aku jg cari di youtube yg goyang2 gitu. lumayan 10 menit aja udah keringetan banget. kalo butuh udara fresh baru keluar jalan keliling kompleks atau taman. enak sih pikiran jd lebih bersih juga kan ya, kek nggak sumpek gitu jadinya.
yuk bisa yuk! mens sana in corpore sano!