A Home For My Thoughts

Tomorrow is 2016. Time runs so fast. I still remember the first day on 2015, I felt that “Okay.. it gonna be next 12 months”. But time runs so fast. So fast. I felt it’s still January, but yesterday I realize that it is December already. Oh well..   What had happened in 2015? As a life, there are always 2 opposite things. Like happiness and sadness. Like black and white. Like up and down. I felt it much. I remember when I went to Jakarta 2 times in a month. I moved to a new place, a place that wouldn’t be my choice but now I am used to it *unless, someone who always ask me to resign and move back to my lovely place*. First half of year 2015 was great. And next half of year 2015, problems comes one by one. No use to write the problems but yeah problem just a problem. Also I have to wait more… ok.. no problem *it used to be a problem, but now*. I did cried a lot and more often than usual. Just to release the burdens. My mind couldn’t remember a...

Ok.. now I want to write about safety level of walking in Malang and Surabaya Well.. I love to walk. I often walking. Why? Because I am lazy to exercise so this is the only one simple sport that I can do everyday hahaha *an excuse* When I was in Malang, I walked a lot. Walking to campus, to my work place, to closest mall, even to somewhere that located a bit far from my place. I love to walk when I was in Malang. Because Malang air always refreshing and it is safe to walk everytime even at midnight *I did it often*. Yeah this is the simplest exercise that people can do. I walked at least 30mins a day, if I am not going anywhere. But I did more than that. Especially after raining, hmmm Malang is so beautiful and the best thing that you can do is walking enjoying Malang. And now... I am staying in Surabaya. I tried to walk, but everytime I walk I feel like people look at me and feel like "hey, who are you walking on my area!",  and never feel safe. People always talk to me ...

Now I found the reason why I really love to be under the rain. Last night mom told me about how I love the rain drops. When I was kid, daddy was riding motorbike, and I sat in front. For some people, it is not safe. But for me, it is interesting. A lot. When raining, and I sat in front, I always love to feel the raindrops on my hands and face even sometimes “drink” it. It is totally fine and fun. Well.. maybe dad and mom just a bit angry to me. They thought that it is not safe to ‘drink’ the raindrops. But I love it, even now. I mean I don’t drink it anymore, I just feel the raindrops on my hands, my face. I thought it is only I was kid that’s why I love under the rain. Every kids love it. I remember that I love to do it. But it is the thing that I always do when raining now. It is like healing. What kind of healing? From stress, from everything. When I feel that I need to be alone, to introspect myself, raining will be the best thing for me. feel ...

Hai… lagi-lagi menyoal pendidikan ya. Lagi demo buruh dimana-mana, minta UMK dinaikin. Udah setuju dinaikkan, tapi kebijakan yang dihasilkan dinilai merugikan para buruh. Pemerintah dipandang lebih mementingkan dan memihak pengusaha. Katanya sih begitu. Tapi kurang paham juga. Pada beberapa kasus ada pengusaha yang keberatan menaikkan upah buruh, namun ada juga yang menyanggupi menaikkan upah buruh dengan syarat dan ketentuan. Syaratnya apa? “Oke, gaji elu gue naikin tapi sebagian dari elo gue PHK”. Nahh… gimana ini ? bagaimana jika menghadapi hal seperti ini? Dengan diberhentikannya sebagian buruh, akan semakin menambah beban kerja para buruh lainnya. Walaupun gaji naik namun beban kerja lebih tinggi. Itu kalau menurutku adalah “gak ada bedanya gaji naik ataupun nggak”. Memang beberapa pengusaha merupakan usaha skala kecil menengah, bukan kelas tinggi. Karena kalau kelas tinggi seperti perusahaan multinasional atau bahkan internasional, mereka akan...

Terlahir sebagai cucu pertama bagi kakek nenekku (orangtua dari ibu). Kakek nenekku yang memang dipanggil papi dan mami sangat memanjakanku sebagai cucu kesayangan dan tinggal bersamaku. Aku sangat akrab dan dekat dengan mereke berdua. Dimanjakan mereka adalah hal biasa meskipun aku tidak terlalu manja sebagai cucu. Lebih sering membantah semua perkataan mereka karena merasa apapun yang kulakukan, meskipun salah akan tetap didukung dan dicintai mereka. Setidaknya mereka tidak akan menyalahkanku. Mungkin di sisi itulah aku manja dan merasa memanfaatkan kasih sayang mereka yang berlebih. Ketika aku kelas 1 SMA, papi sakit parah hingga harus opname beberapa minggu di rumah sakit. Setelah sembuh pun papi tidak segera pulang kerumah karena harus menjalani masa penyembuhan dirumah tante yang kebetulan bekerja sebagai tenaga medis. Setelah beberapa saat sembuh, akhirnya papi pulang kerumah. Malam hari tanggal 1 Januari 2007. Tapi malam tahun baru itupun aku tidak bisa menikmati hari libur ...

Kami putra dan putri Indonesia mengaku bertumpah darah yang satu, tanah air Indonesia Kami putra dan putri Indonesia mengaku berbangsa yang satu, bangsa Indonesia Kami putra dan putri Indonesia menjunjung bahasa persatuan, bahasa Indonesia Ada yang ingat itu apa?? Sebagai pemuda pemudi Indonesia pastinya mengetahui lahh ketiga pernyataan hebat tersebut. Iya, SUMPAH PEMUDA Sumpah pemuda yang diucapkan pada tanggal 28 Oktober 1928 silam. Tonggak perjuangan bangsa. Semangat dalam memperjuangkan kemerdekaan bangsa. Ya. Pemuda selalu memiliki semangat yang kadang terlampau menggebu. Bertumpah darah satu, tumpah darah indonesia. Sampai matipun akan kupertahankan nama bangsaku ini. Kalo ada yang tanya kenapa cinta indonesia yang “seringkali terlihat” tidak baik ? Sekarang pertanyaan itu ssya balikin, kenapa cinta sama suami/istri kalian? Apa mereka sempurna tanpa kekurangan?? Tidak ada yang sempurna kan. Mencintai kelebihan dan kekurangannya. Berbangsa satu, bangsa Indones...

Be honest, I was dreaming to work in an international company since I was kid. Like being a career woman in a great company is always look amazing and great. Always wearing a beautiful clothes, shoes, and got paid very well. Well.. that was me who just seeing something by its look. Doesn’t know the essential value. I was nothing, didn’t know anything about life, about stuff and things in life. About what makes us happy. Just yeah, it like better to stay in a comfort zone. And I really don’t like being a teacher. Because when seeing my father and his whole family, are all teacher (mostly), that make me feel like “Hmm boring, having a family and most of all are teacher”. That was when I didn’t know anything in life, didn’t know the value of life Then few years later, when I start to think about everything more globally, I see that everything changes. Everything turn in opposite. I start to fall in love with teaching. Fall in love with students....

Quarreling like other couple do, yeah we did it Debating about some stuff, sure we did it too Too much things that we often debate of Not even small things, but serious things Yes, because we have different way of thinking Everyone does Angry? Yes a bit Tired? Oh yes of course The basic thing that we always talk about, often end up with debating and quarreling Didn’t talk to each other for several days, sure it often happen But after several days, you talk to me, Smile again to me, That smile, never fail to make me fall for you Again and again  #ini ceritanya kayak sok galo gitu. Padahal juga kagak hahaha

아파. 지워.

Jadi ceritanya ini baru pertama kali gojek. Pertama kali pulang dari surabaya sendirian, naik bis. Ga tau kanan kiri harus naik apa dari kos sampe terminal, akhirnya pengen cobain gojek de ya. Tereeettt... aplikasi uda di tablet jauh2 hari, tp belom pernah cobain. Jadi yaaa coba la gojek pertama kali. Pesen. Bismillah submit. Selesai submit langsung ditelpon sama abang gojeknya. "Mbak, tunggu ya, saya menuju sana. Sebenta kok" "Oh ok pak sip" Nunggulah aku kira2 5menit. Selang itu ditelpon lagi bapaknya bilang "mbak saya uda di *somewhere*,ini saya jalan kemana ya harusnya?" WHAT???? MANA GUE TAU HARUS KEMANA. Tujuannya pesen gojek biar kemana2 tinggal jalan aja, orang juga baru sebulan di surabaya. Plisss deh ya Akhirnya dengan kemampuan yg sangat amat terbatas tentang surabaya, aku jelasin lah itu dimana lokasiku. "Bapak tau kantor *ini* ?" "Oiya mbak, tau" "Yaudah pak diseblah kantor itu kan ada jalan gede, nah lwat situ...