I Thought I Hate People, but...

Sanur

... but I actually don't!

That I realized when I had dinner with H and he asked me, "Do you think she's married? The seller, she looks young but not too young." 

So I said, "Uhmm I don't know and I don't care." 

He then said again, "Yea I know, but I am curious about people. I am curious about what they're doing in life."

That's when it came to my mind, "Wait a minute! I am also curious about people, but not their personal life like marital status, how many kids they have, what religion they believe in. I am curious about what they think about things! Ah that's why I love talking to people, no matter how introvert I am but talking to people still excites me."

Then we finished our big nasi goreng together. 

Looking back at it, I never really like people randomly talking to me when I was in the zone... Like zoning in and out talking to myself. But actually no, maybe it was only that we didn't sync so I went "UGH WTF, I WANT PEACE."

I am not a person who will randomly going to a cafe and then talk to a bunch of strangers. If I were going to cafe, it's usually I want to do people-watching, but I don't want to be approached lol. Well it can happen sometimes but mostly somebody approached me first then my system work to analyse that person. It's good to have a small talk, random chit chat for an hour with stranger, but not too much 😅

I always like talking to people, with different mindset, with different culture, different beliefs, different everything. It's so fun that every conversation that happens, I learn a lot from it. As if "Woah, this is crazy!" and came back home feeling satisfied. But yea as an introvert, I need to limit myself and not interacting with more than 3 people at the same time. I still prefer to have one-one interaction. I still need to see if we sync each other. If we don't then I'll take a few steps back and disappear lol. 

So, yeah. Turns out, I don't hate people 😋 Though I still prefer sitting by myself, on the beach, and contemplating.