Bakso I have to admit that my love for cooking is growing. It's growing and I can't believe it myself. This feeling has been like this since probably two years ago. Before, cooking felt like a hard work that I had to fulfill. It still is, but the difference is I enjoy it now. So it does not feel like I am forcing myself. Back then whenever I cooked, it's either wrong recipe or incorrect measurement. It never tasted right. So I gave up cooking just because I never found the right one. And then I started to feel that I wanna eat better. I don't want to just eat whatever, I want to know what goes into my body. If I prepare it myself, then I know it's good one. I don't eat too much sugar, sometimes it is hard to buy one thing outside and has a lot of sugar in it. So cooking it myself will allow me to control the amount of sugar. So I found recipes and I tried to make them. As to my surprise, they taste right! Exactly how they should have tasted. That made me happy
Sanur
... but I actually don't!
That I realized when I had dinner with H and he asked me, "Do you think she's married? The seller, she looks young but not too young."
So I said, "Uhmm I don't know and I don't care."
He then said again, "Yea I know, but I am curious about people. I am curious about what they're doing in life."
That's when it came to my mind, "Wait a minute! I am also curious about people, but not their personal life like marital status, how many kids they have, what religion they believe in. I am curious about what they think about things! Ah that's why I love talking to people, no matter how introvert I am but talking to people still excites me."
Then we finished our big nasi goreng together.
Looking back at it, I never really like people randomly talking to me when I was in the zone... Like zoning in and out talking to myself. But actually no, maybe it was only that we didn't sync so I went "UGH WTF, I WANT PEACE."
I am not a person who will randomly going to a cafe and then talk to a bunch of strangers. If I were going to cafe, it's usually I want to do people-watching, but I don't want to be approached lol. Well it can happen sometimes but mostly somebody approached me first then my system work to analyse that person. It's good to have a small talk, random chit chat for an hour with stranger, but not too much 😅
I always like talking to people, with different mindset, with different culture, different beliefs, different everything. It's so fun that every conversation that happens, I learn a lot from it. As if "Woah, this is crazy!" and came back home feeling satisfied. But yea as an introvert, I need to limit myself and not interacting with more than 3 people at the same time. I still prefer to have one-one interaction. I still need to see if we sync each other. If we don't then I'll take a few steps back and disappear lol.
So, yeah. Turns out, I don't hate people 😋 Though I still prefer sitting by myself, on the beach, and contemplating.
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