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Sepatu Winter Pertama

Moscow Dulu, masih sempet pakai sepatu dengan hak 5 cm waktu kerja kantoran. Ya karena harus keliatan formal aja sih, meskipun nggak ada yang ngelarang juga kalau mau sepatu sneakers pun. Toh juga waktu kerja sepatu dilepas dan pakai sendal jepit.  Tapi itu sudah lama sekali. Setelahnya, bertahun-tahun hanya punya 1 sepatu sneakers dan 1 sandal. Sendal jepit punya lah ya, kan hidup di Bali. Salah satu esensial itu. Sebenernya alesannya sederhana, bukan karena nggak mau punya sepatu lebih dari satu tapi lebih ke males harus nyocokin sepatu lagi ke kaki yang belum tentu enak dipakainya.  Sepatu itu adalah hal esensial yang buat gw nggak apa mahal yang penting nyaman. Karena taruhannya di pijakan, dan itu bisa berdampak ke banyak hal kalau salah pilih sepatu. Jalan kaki adalah bagian besar dari hidup gw, jadi punya sepatu nyaman adalah hal yang tidak bisa dinego.  Nah, meskipun gw beberapa kali pernah jalan-jalan saat musim dingin, Moskow ini agak beda. Kalau di Belanda, mes...

The Spell of the Ocean

Vavuu atol Someone once told me that he couldn't live far from the beach and ocean. Wherever he lives, it must be somewhere next to the beach. Preferably 10 mins walking. I didn't get that until I feel it myself.  Holy shit! When did I fall in love with the beach? Grew up in Malang, they don't have calm beaches. They have only southern beaches, with crazy waves and deadly ones. Never crossed my mind that I'd fall in love with beaches. Too noisy, too crowded, I don't like it. Because the beaches there are always so crowded with people. Then I moved to Bali, living practically close to the beach. Only 3 KM from Sanur. The first time I came to Sanur, I fell in love with that beach from first sight.  I do love Seminyak beaches too, the sunsets are always crazy beautiful, but it's pretty far. For many people, Sanur may not be that special but for me it is. I can feel the energy whenever I need to recharge myself. It's always sweeping away my negative thoughts/ene...

Menjadi Seorang Intuitif

Kiki, snuggly cat in Fulidhoo Menurut definisi, Highly Intuitive Person adalah orang yang intuisinya tajam banget. Kebetulan gw menjadi salah satunya. Dari dulu gw dapet sebutan dukun dari temen-temen gw. Karena seringkali gw bisa nebak 80% soal ujian yang bakal keluar. Tiap mau ujian, temen gw pasti nanya apa yang gw pelajari dan apa yang gw rasa bakal muncul di ujian. Tapi bukan berarti gw bisa dapet nilai bagus sih. Gw bisa nebak soal yang keluar tapi belum tentu gw bisa tau jawabannya juga 😤 Kalau soal itu penentu masa depan, gw langsung minta temen gw buat kasih gw jawaban haha!  Segampang berujar waktu karantina, "Kok gw pengen ya sarapan besok pecel", eh besoknya dateng pecel. "Pengen ikan goreng sambel kecap" siangnya dateng menu itu. "Ah bosen ah gini doang, pengen sarapan enteng pake roti gitu aja, ala barat" datang juga besokannya begitu. 🙆 Seringkali, ini sering banget sampai gw pernah "dibenci" sahabat gw karena gw bilang gw nggak...

Lessons Learned in 2021

2021 is personally not an easy year. It's the year where I questioned my existence as a human being. I thought being a kind person was enough.  Obviously, I felt insecure when the closest person told me how I was not special, doing less than what I could. That triggered me and I started to ask myself "What am I doing on this earth? What's my purpose as a human? What am I going to do? What do I want to do? What do I want to become? What kind of future do I want? What am I?"  That person only became the trigger, yet the problems existed inside me. So I realized completely that it was about me, not someone else. There was something wrong with me. When I knew that the problem is me, I seek help. Lucky me (or should I say, unlucky me?), I didn't have those scary nights alone. My best friend went through the same, so we're kinda helping each other. Though the trigger was different we felt the same symptoms and side effects.  Yea I had those questions for a few month...